[	how i'm feelin	|	shocked	]
[	what i'm listening to	|	1 2 Step ~ Ciara	]

well...it's almost here. the start of my LAST semester at clarion. I really can't believe that I am going back to school for my last semester of college. I dunno, its strange. It just went so quick, that it kinda doesn't feel like it happened. Its prolly cuz I've been non stop since sophomore year with school, then CP, then junior year, then CP, and now senior year. I mean its been hella fun...but its also gone hella fast. :-/

so in other news, the WeIrDeSt thing happened to me today. I was shoppin in Abercrombie & Fitch, and I was buying something. well when I was at the register, the chick asked me how old I was. and I was thinkin to myself, "Do I have to be a certain age to buy this or something, wtf?" but I told her I was 21. well she then says, "Do u have a job?" and I was like, "I'm going back to school tomorrow" and then, MUCH TO MY SURPRISE, she says, "Well I was gonna see if you wanted a job" *HELLA HUGE GASP* damn. now this may not seem like something big to a normal person, but to me, I was shocked.  well anyways, she told me to apply at spring break for a summer job. We'll see where this goes. I just never expected that to happen today! :-)

so I dunno, there isn't really anything else to write about now, but since I am goin back to school for another semester, I will say to everyone and anyone...PLEASE COME VISIT! I would absolutely love a visit at clarion from anyone, especially some of you CP peeps...like my audra! :-D I can't wait to hang out with you! well...I must head to bed, a long journey back to school awaits me tomorrow...byes! :-P

[	how i'm feelin	|	happy	]
[	what i'm listening to	|	Collide ~ Howie Day	]

so i dunno where to start.  I havent updated this thing in about 309843 days, and well, i havent even thought bout it...til audra tells me she got a LJ. so, i had to do a little update. first off...I LOVE AUDRA! of all people, i miss her the most. it just sucks ass that we are so far away. audra...i cant wait to see u again! next...

HAPPY 2005!

like...WTF. i can't believe it is 2005 already, and even more scary...this is the year i will graduate from college! *gasp* i just hope im ready for this, and even more, i hope i get a job that pays more then lame-o cedar point. lol. and moving on to that...i will not be returning to cedar point this summer! as much as i love it, and how part of me wants to go, with graduating from college i need to focus on real life, not CP life.

so back to this 2005 thing. so everyone does these resolutions, and i think i have one. but its been the same one for like 14 years. i wanna work out and have a better self esteem. but. it never happens. maybe this year i will actually do it. but who knows. im keepin my fingers crossed. well i am kinda sick of writing. in short. im home for break for 3 more days, then its back to life at clarion...cept i'll be student teaching. lets hope this goes good! other then that, life has been goin fine...maybe i'll write more on here now that audra has lj. maybe. byes! :-P

[	how i'm feelin	|	busy	]
[	what i'm listening to	|	Lose My Breath ~ Destiny's Child	]

so i've been soo freakin busy with school i can't even think! :-( but i thought i would just do a quick update...

CEDAR POINT was a blast this sunday!
it was great going with tina, and it was awesome seeing everyone! I miss all you guys up at CP...especially my dragster people, and my audra! i miss ya ah-to-the-rah! ;-) we rode everything...we even got stuck on raptor...it was cool!!! eventho it was like 2 degrees...we still had a GREAT time!

well, i really must get back to my schoolwork...just thought i would say hi! byes :-P

[	how i'm feelin	|	satisfied	]
[	what i'm listening to	|	Goodies ~ Ciara	]

wow! this was seriously the most fun i have ever had here at clarion...too bad i don't remember some of it! ALF is the best part of going to clarion, and i am gonna miss it soo much! I have never partied so much, so i guess i'll go through the last few nights:

• Tuesday: went to the Loomis for 99 cent margaritas then headed over to UI for 50 cent drafts. i was actually surprised at how many people went out on Tuesday...tina, deanna, and i rocked the dancefloor...actually, we were the only ones dancing, but it was a great time!
• Wednesday: we all decided to go back out, but we didnt head out til a lil later.  I went with tina to go meet everyone at the Loomis for pony bottle night with kareoke. Tina sang a song and dedicated it to block 2! it was so much fun! This kid called Bonk, bought us so many drinks, including this jellyfish shot, that was chunky...but good!
• Thursday: thursday was a great night! we started it all with a Block 2 party at tinas. me and kristie made a sign for the house it said "Block 2 Party! Teaching the youth of America...one shot at a time!" we all drank quick then headed to the pep-rally...i was definitely drunk for that! lol. it was fun! then i went back to tinas and we drank a lil more then headed out to the bar and once again...rocked the dancefloor! so someone stole our block sign...and we are all pissed...if we find out who did it, WATCH OUT!
• Friday: I started off the drinkin at the delta phi epsilon house with kristie eatin and drinkin, and then went over to rachelles for a lil party...once again we all decided to go to the bar and we once again, went to both! lol. It was a ton of fun, but we were all completely trashed...but thats ok, its ALF!
• Saturday: in the mornin was the parade and then the football game, so i had to wait til like 7 to drink...GR! lol. so i wasn't really sure what was gonna happen tonight, but i started off by goin to deannas to take shots and then get some food at alf...eatin alf food drunkmakes it even yummier! we then headed to my friend brandy's apartment. after that we went to Loomis and met up with tina and jess, then I went to UI. i decided to go meet up with my laura, so i walked to shannons place, then went back to the bar and dance with all my friends...so much fun! i then went back to brandy's and hung out til i went home.

So that was basically my 5 day streak of drinking! i'm not an alloholic, but it might sound like it! oopsie! our block definitely drinks the most...like half of us went that long drinking, but its ok...we had a blast together! other then all the ALF stuff goin on, i have been pretty busy with school, band, and everythign else...so i havent had much time to update! sorry! well, after 5 days of drinkin, i am beat...so i am gonna get to bed! byes! :-P

[	how i'm feelin	|	drunk	]
[	what i'm listening to	|	Let's Get it Started ~ Black Eyed Peas	]

HAPPY ALF!!!

it's my last one...but it's definitely been great! more later...

[	how i'm feelin	|	happy	]
[	what i'm listening to	|	Only One ~ Yellowcard	]

wow! I haven't updated this thing in forever! I have been soo busy these first few weeks at school that i actually forgot i still had this thing! lol. Let me start off with this past summer at Cedar Point, Ameica's Roller Coast!

I loved my crew soooo much!  I miss u soo much Aud-to-the-rah! It sucks not bein with u all the time, and it sucks not havin as much fun as we did. you are the girl version of me, which is why i think we had such a blast together. I can never hear "Get Out" or "Pieces" without thinking of u! i cant wait for us to hang out again, and i hope its soon! Luv ya! To the rest of the crew....i couldnt imagine working with anyone else...and if i did, it would NEVER have been as much fun! I love all of you! Keep in Touch!

T-T-D! T-T-D! Millennium Force What?!?! T-T-D!

I really can not believe it is my senior year here at clarion! it does not feel like it should be my last year here.  Its cool being on block tho....I am in Block 2, which we have declared as the "cool block" lol. but i really think we are....if i had to be stuck with any group of elementary education majors, i really think i would pick most of these people. we are all going to go to the bar this week for a block party...lol.

this year at clarion i am living in Reinhard Villages. it is hella sweet. granted we are paying tons for it, it is still like the nicest college housing i have seen around. i am living in the Laurel Glen Village,  It is the only village with brick, which makes us feel like the "upper class" village. I am living with Nunzio, and it is going really well.

I am in marching band again this year, and it's different this year. we got a new director, and he is kinda trying to make us into a real band...which is what i have been wanting all along. we play a lot more in the stands, and we actually have a pregame show! too bad he came right before i left, but in a few years i think clarion will have a good band. i am also the section leader for the sax's. we have 8 saxophones this year....amazing!

well there is still a lot more goin on in my life, but i kinda get sick of writing after i write so much, soo i think i am just gonna stop here for now and write more later. if you are reading this, send me a message on AIM because i lost my buddy list because my computer is a peice of shit....byes!

[	how i'm feelin	|	excited	]
[	what i'm listening to	|	Ready To Go ~ Republica	]

well, since i leave for Cedar Point tomorrow, i guess you could call this my last entry for a few months...don't miss my entries too much! So, if you didn't know...

yay! hehe. I should be workin at Top Thrill Dragster, so come to visit me, and to ride it...it's seriously amazing! if any of you are goin to be in Sandusky in the summer, call me and lemme know when so i can visit with ya! I love riding rides, so we could go riding together! yay! I will try to be on AIM on my cell as poodra as much as possible, so IM me there if you wanna talk! i hope all of you have a great summer, and gimme a call sometime...i would love to talk! byes! :-P

[	how i'm feelin	|	excited	]
[	what i'm listening to	|	Everytime ~ Britney Spears	]

well...i've been home for a few days now, and its been boring, but nice. i really needed a few days to relax and do nothin. lets see...i really haven't done much more then hung out a lil, and went to the mall and ate. lol. i ate at johnny carinos in robinson last night, and it was yummy! i love italian food...i have come to the conclusion that i really think i am supposed to be italian. hm...i think i am like 1/8 italian...good enough for me! :-D</font>

so school is over, and its hella nice not havin work to do...especially after that shitty finals week. i never wanna have to take finals again. lets just hope my grades will be decent. keep ur fingers crossed for me. i know im not gettin a 4.0, but i would like to have as many A's and as few B's as possible. i keep tryin to check my grades, but its hard figuring it out just based on cumulative gpa. lol.

so i leave for cedar point monday, and i must say i couldn't be more psyched! i keep thinkin about it, and i get all giddy! hehe. i did the online training today, and it was cake. so freakin easy i coulda done it blindfolded. i got a 100% on it, so i am good to go! :-D

well, i really don't know what else to write in here, so i think i'm gonna just stop writin now! everyone should def come see me at cedar point this summer, and if not for me, to come ride some awesome roller coasters. i do want people ot come for my 21st birthday, which is now only 47 days away. yay! well, i'm headin out! byes! :-P

[	how i'm feelin	|	shocked	]
[	what i'm listening to	|	I Don't Wanna Know ~ Mario Winans	]

i am home after my THIRD year of college!  *gasp* i really can't believe this. where the heck has the past 3 years gone at Clarion?! it's just soo weird. like i've only been gone for a few hours, and i miss my friends already.  seriously i could have asked for a better last weekend at school. yay for drinking and parties! college is great!

so i am hopin i do ok in my classes...the finals werent that tough in some, but in others, like sped, they were impossible. i will NEVER stay up all night again. ive learned my lesson.  i found out that i somehow got an A in one of my classes...i think the professor just gave me what i needed to get an A, but hell, i'll take it!

so i watched the show choir concert tonight (my parents taped it), and it really wasn't as bad as i thought it was going to be. talkin about today, moving out sucked. i seriously hate moving! like it took me and my dad three hours to pack it all up and get the f*ck outta there. lol. o well, no more dorms in good ol CU anymore, off to some sweet-ass apartments! yay!

so i guess i should mention, that i am hella excited to start workin at cedar point for my second summer!</font>...i start work in 5 days! i really cant wait to start up again, but i am also kinda nervous. i mean, like i think im gonna have a blast, but its gonna be tough switchin livestyles. its gonna be soo weird not havin people that know me so well that we dont even need to talk to say what we wanna say...i'm gonna miss u guys sooo much! i just hope the first few days are ok, after that, i know i will be fine. well, i am bored outta my mind here at home, so i'm gonna listen to some musical soundtracks, chat, and then eventually go to bed. byes! :-P

[	how i'm feelin	|	exhausted	]
[	what i'm listening to	|	F*ck It ~ Eamon	]

so since i am tired as f*ck...i am not gonna write a long entry.  i just thought i would tell everyone to never stay up all night studying, because it doesn't help at all.  all 3 of my finals didn't leave a good taste in my mouth...basically, i'm really upset, but too exhausted to think bout it. i'm just prayin for good grades...keep ur fingers crossed for me guys!

tomorrow i am movin out of school.  i will never live in the dorms here again...thats exciting, but weird. i've lived in this room for 2 and a half years, i kinda like it here. well i will be home for a few days, then it's off to work at CEDAR POINT, and i start in only 6 days! yay! well, i am gonna get to bed...i'm beat! byes :-P

[	how i'm feelin	|	exhausted	]
[	what i'm listening to	|	Perfect ~ Simple Plan	]

so just to update really quick...i have been flippin bout finals and not bein ready for them, so i spent all of last night in the library studyin. yep, thats right...

I DIDN'T SLEEP LAST NIGHT! :-(

lets just hope all this extra studyin pays off on the 3 finals i have today! wish me some luck...i def need it! well, i better get back to studyin, then i gotta go take them! byes.

[	how i'm feelin	|	stressed	]
[	what i'm listening to	|	Woman ~ Maroon 5	]

so, as of right now...hell has officially begun. you know, all semester isnt really that bad at all, but finals week just kills me. this finals week sucks bad. i have 3 tests, the 3 hardest tests, on the same day right after each other. like. WTF. i have no desire to study for any of them either, like i just cant get myself to do it tonight, which means tomorrow i will be studying like alll day. its gonna suck balls. someone get me to study!! but enough about finals...

last night was seriously another awesome night. we went to nikaela's for a party, and like always there was tons of people there. i really am liking this whole meeting new people thing...i need to go to parties all the time next semester...OMG....i can go to the bar next semester...yay! but at nikaela's i drank like 8 beers and was just enjoying life. i accidently stepped on nikaela's foot, but i dont think she knows it was me. shhhhh. lol. well we were at the party til like 3:30, then me and laura walked back home. i was upset, because i took a camera, and i only took 8 pictures. o well, i think they were with new random people, so that makes me happy!

college life has been the best the past 3 nights. this is definitely a first for brian...i have never gotten trashed three nights in a row. like, is it bad that i kinda liked it?!?! i am not gonna have to go to AA meetings, i do know when to stop. i just cant let myself get an underage when i only have 53 days til im 21. i'd be sooo pissed off if i got this far without one, and then i got one right before my 21st...so cedar point people, dont let me get one! thanks! :-D i really dont wish it was the end of the semester so i could keep partyin and havin a blast, but i guess i can continue next semester. yay for alchy!

today was the show choir concert. i really didnt think it was going to be good at all, especially after the shitty dress/tech rehearsal....but in the end the show went pretty well. me, laura, and karas trio thing went really well....go us! we sounded the best out of all of the solo things, at least thats what i heard from people...im really not bein arrogant. lol. then i went to dinner with my mom and my dad, and i came back here and napped. now i am tryin to study, but i just dont know if it is gonna happen. ugh. well, i should at least go try...back to the books for bri. byes! :-P

[	how i'm feelin	|	drunk	]
[	what i'm listening to	|	Roses ~ Outkast	]

TONIGHT WAS AWESOME!!!

i met even more people...people i never thought i would talk to! yay! tonight was a blast too, and night three of brians drinkin adventures! yay! i dont wanna leave school! i will miss u guys sooo much! i need to go pass out! gnight! :-P

[	how i'm feelin	|	energetic	]
[	what i'm listening to	|	Dirt Off Your Shoulder ~ Jay-Z	]

so last night was seriously great. i must say that laura had our first HUGE fight yesterday, literally an hour before the formal. it was BAD. but we got over it and had a blast at the alpha psi formal. so we got to nikaela's at like 6, and we supposed to be outta there by 6:10. OOPS! lol. well, how bout this:

 we took 7 shots and drank a cosmo in 15 min.

*gasp* ya. lol. it was good tho. so we got the cab to take us to the hotel, and we had dinner and stuff. we kept drinkin there and dancin all night. i used my whole camera, and i remember taking like 4 pictures. i dont remember takin like 90 percent of them. o well. it was soo much fun! i am honestly surprised me or laura didnt throw up at all. we drank A LOT, in a lil time, and then just kept drinkin more and more alll night! go us! we arent lightweights! yipee! well, i am about to go out again tonight for hopefully another night of drinkin. byes! :-P

[	how i'm feelin	|	drunk	]
[	what i'm listening to	|	Baby Boy ~ Beyonce	]

TONIGHT WAS A BLAST TOO! YAY!

seriously...i am lovin college right now...i dont want it to end. :-( i will miss  u guys soooo much! the alpha psi banquet was awesome! i'll write more tomorrow. g'nite! :-D

[	how i'm feelin	|	excited	]
[	what i'm listening to	|	Yeah ~ Usher	]

so last night i was watchin tv and for some reason, somethin caused me to think about how i dont wanna grow up and leave college. i love bein in college, and just the life here. :-( i dont wanna grow up...call me peter pan if u wanna...but i just could live this life forever.

yesterday for dinner, me and jess went to the spring fling for dinner. i had a gyro...yummy! i love this carny food. its soooo good! then i came back and took a nap, then i was just chillin until jess called me to go out with them. lemme just say...

the adventures of last night made me feel like i am goin to a real college! lol. we were walkin across town to the baseball house for a party, and about halfway there we heard tons of people and stuff...it was the party we were goin to. omg. this party was HUGE! i have never seen a party like this at clarion. it was the best. we just chilled there until the cops were sittin outside, so then we went to this guy Vince's house to continue. lemme tell u. never in my entire life did i think i would be hangin out with the people i did last night. it was great! that is one of the reasons i love jessica...she introduces me to tons of people. luv ya jess! you wanna know the best part about last night!?!? i didn't pay a single cent to drink. yay! it was just great hangin out with different people, and just havin fun! i needed that.

so i came back here and passed out, and now i am just chillin until show choir at 3. then, tonight is the alpha psi banquet! yay! me and laura are goin together, and we are gonna be f*ckin hot! we are gonna take a cab there so we can drink before we go. lol. i love us. who else would think about takin a cab?!?! lol. tonight should be a blast...hopefully i will be out til really late drinkin. yay for college! :-D

10 days til the point and 55 days til im 21!! yay!